I love God so so much :) I’m so thankful to have found him. It started off with me questioning his existence last June (2013) & I cried for ages cause I was dealing with a year-old break up that tears my heart apart every time I think about it. But slowly I’ve learnt to trust God & now I’m loving this relationship more than ever.<3 it was so hard and I’m still confused as to how God can love ME. Why did he choose ME? & I still have so many questions but I love this it’s like embarking on a new relationship & this time I’m guaranteed love & faithfulness & I can give the same back :) :) it’s everything I’ve always dreamed of its the love I’ve always wanted & craved & I know I don’t have to feel insecure cause ill never see an end to this relationship because God loves me so so much :D
It’s a series of little events that happen every day, both good & bad & I’m so glad I think I can hear God speak to me bit by bit!!
LITERALLY when I NEED to hear God when I’m desperate and frustrated or scared as heck for my life in the perils of living in this dangerous place I feel God. I FEEL his presence. Embracing me and extending his arm to me. I love him :) I’m so happy :)
Yes part of me still aches I’m still grieving over the love that ended here with a boy yes I will love him forever too. But I told everything to God & I’m really really trusting him on this - I told him how much I love this boy but I can’t split my heart into two now so please help me focus nurturing this love and relationship with God before I attempt to love any human being :)
I love God :) I’ve prayed so hard for many things. He’s softened my heart and opened me up to who I really am in essence again I love it I love it :) :) :)